Rush and Risk

I've always been one to rush into things or risk more than others think is safe, from "Rushing" bombsite A in de_dust2 (lol) to spontaneously buying stuff which I think I want - to trusting people, judging people and relationships... I think its time that I take that step back, and ask myself do I really want this? or perhaps - Is this really me?

Why is it always the case that when something you've always wanted, comes your way - you just cannot be bothered with it, and don't want it anymore? or when you've got something, and can't imagine life without it; then when it's not there - your life turns upside down; and that very one thing which you thought you'd never lose, is the only thing that you could ever want. It's like a cycle, a process... and sadly - it repeats itself. How is it that ALWAYS in the middle of difficulty... there lies opportunity. Are only those who are willing to RISK more, able to gain more?

That's life I guess, unfortunately. to love - is it risk not being loved in return. to hope - is to risk additional pain, to try is to risk potential failure or even humiliation. but risk MUST be taken... because the greatest hazard in life, is to risk nothing.