The best of both worlds

Uni’s back... and what do you know, I’m sick again. It feels like VCE all over again, lack of sleep – in exchange for more time studying... constantly feeling lethargic and weak, and that “runny nose” at around the clock... I can’t do this again. Decided what I need to do is to rest up... and get back to 110% and also TRY to get at least 7hrs of sleep a night.

Anyway... my first real “rant”. Something just really hits a nerve... it’s not something I can say out loud since it’s such a “sensitive” topic... but it should definitely be addressed... Because I hate how you pretend like it doesn’t matter and just “expect” it now... and how you just “laugh” it off rather than actually think people are serious. Because if you keep doing what you’re doing and it keeps affecting me, one day I’m going to snap again... and this time I don’t know what I’ll do. I’m generally decent at keeping my anger to myself... Not letting it show. Maybe what I do need is to let it show...

On a different note; I never thought I’d ever consider wanting the best of both worlds... I mean; those who do are usually looked down upon and despised. This stuff only happens in dramas and movies, but not in real life... But I’ve made my choice; just hope it’s the right one... Typically – such thoughts wouldn’t have ever crossed my mind, so why is it they are? I still hate this feeling... and maybe it is true – if you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten... Sorry for the formality, the weather is defs getting to me. Haha, don’t you love ambiguity? =)

Just had 6 hours sleep... and woke up; going to eat and sleep some more...?

P.S Can’t wait to see your face soon... you brighten up my day hahahahhahahahahahah =]

You know you love me
x.o.xo