P's ??

Really hope I pass my P's test.. 2hrs till test time !!
My logbook has a error in the odometer reading LOL - I hope the LTO doesn't spot it.
Lack of sleep? NP, coffee will do the job. I hope so :(

il ya un an

really? this cant be happening. de ja vu & all over again -.- ~ i never got the chance to say sorry... sorry for being such a sh*t kid..
sorry for the informality of our departure
AND sorry, for what happened after.
am i going to make the same mistake again?
have i not learnt from my mistake?
at the end of the day - karma will hit me back; twice as hard and where the sun don't shine. i didn't expect it last time when i lost, but i will this time if i let it happen.
Sure - we don't talk now. but i can't help but wonder "what if?" - my life is filled with countless "what if?"'s, they say when you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did.. and you, you are still my kryptonite.

On a less ambiguous note - went to bh lib yesterday with Eric, since I was THAT bored, was just filling out my learners log book LOL, didn't stay long. went to Genny to grab some lunch with sunny and grabbed some bubble cup too, yumm!! ended up going to visit Youry all the way in Wheelers Hill a.k.a wHooOpWhOop hILl for a bit. Killed some time while SUSAN had to run some errands. Went to Susan's place after as we caught up for the first time as what seemed like AGES and contemplated on how "fun" our holidays actually were LOLOL.. and couldn't decide what to do :( ENDED UP going back to box hill LOLOL then BACK to MONASH .. epic adventure with many laughs on the way :).

Hmm what did I do today.. woke up really late and met up with Susan and tony for coffee in city, WOW aren't I lucky - double does of Susan *cough*NOT*cough* just kidding. however was really good seeing tony - haven't see that funny little viet for a while LOL. and ShOeShAn was the same old Susan :) then met up with the boys before going home for dinner.


Anyway it's extremely late, facebooking, DotA and mp3z while supposedly keeping Shand(r)i(c) company over msn as she pulls an allnighter, but failing hard since we are both going to sleep as the birds haven't even started chirping yet hahah.. weak!!

Placements in 11 days, most boring holidays EVER.. however, not the worst :)

Catch !

Old pleasures

Turned on my computer for the first time since March (Uni started) - The feel of pressing the keys on the good ole' G15 requires so much more effort than typing on a laptop. The movement of the mouse - makes me feel so unco. Played games such as : DotA, Warcraft III, Counter-strike 1.6 and even downloaded Combat Arms to play with mY bRoSiFf - JoESiFf ~ ~~

Wasn't as fun as I rmembered last year, maybe thats a good thing, I'm like over the phase where I gain SOOOO much satisfaction from beating someone else at a game LOL.
Also up to date with Glee and HIMYM and watched IP Man 1 - which was almost as good as IP Man 2. Been sleeping at ungodly hours in the morning too...

Just remenicing about life 1 year ago - I was indeed happy :)

Pretty crappy holidays tbh..

Rush and Risk

I've always been one to rush into things or risk more than others think is safe, from "Rushing" bombsite A in de_dust2 (lol) to spontaneously buying stuff which I think I want - to trusting people, judging people and relationships... I think its time that I take that step back, and ask myself do I really want this? or perhaps - Is this really me?

Why is it always the case that when something you've always wanted, comes your way - you just cannot be bothered with it, and don't want it anymore? or when you've got something, and can't imagine life without it; then when it's not there - your life turns upside down; and that very one thing which you thought you'd never lose, is the only thing that you could ever want. It's like a cycle, a process... and sadly - it repeats itself. How is it that ALWAYS in the middle of difficulty... there lies opportunity. Are only those who are willing to RISK more, able to gain more?

That's life I guess, unfortunately. to love - is it risk not being loved in return. to hope - is to risk additional pain, to try is to risk potential failure or even humiliation. but risk MUST be taken... because the greatest hazard in life, is to risk nothing.

Winter

Winter is finally here and I'm somewhat looking forward to snuggling in on cold mornings in a toast warm house during the holidays :) However, knowing me - I know it'll be only a matter of weeks till I would wish that it was Summer LOL, and vice versa, when its Summer, I want it to be Winter.

The last month or so has been intense, physically as well as mentally. I haven't ever had to cram so much in my life. I miss VCE so much.. High school was a walk in the park compared to Uni-life, last year my greatest fear was loosing a few silly mistakes in an Exam, this year it's quite the opposite - hoping to get that borderline 50% pass so that I don't fail and have to repeat the year. In addition, the people and life-style in Uni is way different, I never knew that there were so many "huge" personalities out there - so there's bound to be a few clashes. Ahhh well, it's all part of the ride I guess, and I guess makes Uni fun. :)

Hahaha - My last exam tomorrow... Should I be excited? Yes. Am I? Not really. It's the OSCE - Objective Structured Clinical Examination (worth only about 10%, but if I fail I cant work in the hospital LOL). Kind of sucks that I have my holidays when all my other mates have SWOTVAC / Exams. Don't get me wrong - I really look forward to catching up on my huge sleep debt, numerous series including Glee and Vamp Diaries and wouldn't mind turning on my computer for the first time since Uni actually commenced. But still - I'm going to miss everyone since their probably going to go in hibernation while they nerd hard for exams. Can't even go to the ASEAN retreat too, was so looking forward to that =.= because of stupid clinical placements. I wonder what life would be like if I hadn't chosen Radiography - If I had just picked Comm/Eng or perhaps even if I went to Melbourne Uni... Not that I regret, but I wish I could see a vision of what and where I'd be if I had chosen another path - that would be really interesting.

I didn't know what I really wanted for a while, but now - I guess I do. I hope I've made the right choice. :(

Anyway, peace out "to my lovers, haters, and masturbate-rs" LOL

x.o.x.o

I love balls.

The most intense week of my life has come and gone..
1) Two assignments due
2) ASEAN Ball
3) Immunisations 10am - the day after ASEAN Ball
4) Mid sem test
Murphey's Law.. true?
Anyway - ASEAN Ball overall was pretty good, though the after party venue was fairly congested, and yeah, they didn't sell shots LOL; so I was fairly shattered.

Mid year exams in a week, im really freaking out... Has my constant slacking off and horrible prioritizing finally gotten the better of me?

Even though I like a challenge, I really don't like my life at the moment.

Anyway, rocked up to uni at 9 the day after ball to get my immunisations, I was totally drained and looked like a zombie, only to meet up with my BROsiff - JOEsiff !! WHO ROCKED UP TO UNI IN *wait for it* HIS BALL SUIT LOLOLOL.... Wow thats dedication, what a beast he pulled an allnighter then went to Uni for immunisations. LOL.

Joe and I enjoyed a nice oily fish and chips meal at Sir Johns after our appointment's then waited for wifey SHOESHAN to come, when she came she too still had make up on from the previous night - but looked babe as usual lol. Joe ended up ditching as he "couldn't tank the pain" as he left to annas house to go sleep, then Susan and I headed to Matheson's to the asian corner and while she slept on the couches, I had to finish a group assignment, but ended up rushing it, so Susan and I could sleep together (as in the same time).

EDIT: This was an old post that I forgot to press Publish on LOL.

So tired

I constantly find myself in limbo of my conciousness and a endless daydream. My eyes are heavy and the pain is excruciating. I can't handle this anymore...